And welcome back to the new and improved Our Journey to Everywhere! What do you think?
The reason for my absence the last month or so is because I received the worst news of my life on the 13th of March 2014. I remember sitting in a restaurant catching up with a friend, and as I was literally adding sugar to my cappuccino, my phone rang and on the other line I heard it. News that I hoped I will never have to hear! My father passed away... My world crumbled and all I could do was pray that it wasn't true. But it was. And my life has never felt this empty. My dad was my whole world, my rock, my support system and my best friend. He was always the first person I phoned (after Cedric) when I had something to share, whether it be bad or good news. And he was always there to jump with joy with me on good news and cheer me up with his silly jokes on bad news. So yes it is safe to say that my life has stopped and I plummeted into a deep dark ocean full of sadness. So many emotions were going through me, mostly anger. Anger at so many people that made his life unhappy the last few months and angry at the person that drove in front of him.
|This was the last time I saw my dad - August 2013|
|I love this photo. This was on his 51st birthday, and this was his way of showing how old he is. LOL!|
And just like that it was over. I still couldn't believe it and I was terrified of coming back to Joburg to face reality. I stayed for the Cremation and thanks to a few angry but caring pushes Cedric and I were on a flight back home. It was really very hard. But in a way I knew we will be ok. Not now, but one day. In the future. We will know that he is now in a better place. Looking over us. Guiding us. He wouldn't want us to be sad, he would want us to be happy, laugh, love and make the best of each day. He did. So why not us too...
I will forever miss you daddy, and the pain and sadness will get better with time. The wounds will heal, but the scars remain. You live through us now and we will make you proud. Love you lots like jelly tots! xxx
Let's see this blog go from strength to strength now, because that's what it deserves! :) My dad always loved reading my blog! And thank you so much to Pretty Geeky for my lovely new blog look! You guys rock!